I decided to challenge myself to the absolute extreme, and after my Olympic lifting class and cardio session had a photo shoot wearing my newly acquired minimal training clothes, along with fellow very awesome bodycomper and bearded hero Paul (who said to me "I'll do it if you do"). I took the initiative to sort this out in the end, as when I suggested it to the rest of the bodycomp team, there was a whistling silence. So determined to challenge myself I went ahead with it. I won't lie... it was a terrifying experience, I had a nightmare the night before about it and was wide awake at 5am with my heart racing until I could leave for my 8am lifting class. I was relieved Paul was there with me because we really supported each other, and in the end we were both able to have fun with it together, rather than feel like being lined up in front of a firing squad. Photos will be posted after the editing process - I've had a few samples to look at so far (couple included below - copyright of Helen Carter Photography) and of course my negative mind zoned in on any body parts that I thought looked bad or squashy in any way whatsoever, especially my stomach. It was very hard for me not to panic that every photo would have a terrible stomach in it and somehow it had actually got bigger not smaller, but looking at myself is exceptionally challenging at the best of times. Therefore I'm doing my best to wait until I see the full selection and not let myself catastrophise that I'll look terrible in all the photos, our photographer the fantastic Helen took several hundred photos so I'd like to hope even my critical mind will be able to think I look okay in one of them. Most importantly though, me and Paul both really smashed through our barriers together, as neither of us felt at all confident in having a photo shoot and I really felt connected to him as a result of us making it through all the photos and having a laugh at the same time. There might even be some photos of me smiling and I'm looking forward to seeing the photos of us together. All in all - really positive result and another challenge taken head on, getting out of that comfort zone is really where the change in ourselves and optimum results seem to live.
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