DAY 85 - TRAINING NOTES

DAY 85 - MEALS & KITTY

Someone preferred the beanbag to joining me at the table for breakfast..

 

MEAL 1 - Lamb curry (75g) with coconut oil, spinach and lentils and rajita (awesome goo)

MEAL 2 - Roast chicken (75g) with coconut oil and curry powder, avocado, tenderstem broccoli

MEAL 3 - Chicken and tomato heck sausages (75g, gf) tomatoes,
courgettes with red pepper, garlic and tomato, kale
NOT PRE WORKOUT MEAL - as above

NOT POST WORKOUT MEAL - Thai green turkey (75g) with lemongrass, kaffir lime,
green pepper and coconut milk, tenderstem broccoli, kale

Patient kitty is rewarded with a tiny bit of turkey

DAY 84 - TRAINING NOTES & BOBBY MAXIMUS

Really glad I was reading Bobby Maximus' 'Training through pain, salvation through suffering' - because on the rower today I really focused on the following words ("try to break the machine you are using. You need to fight, scratch and claw for ever extra meter or calorie".)
I repeated these words in my head over and over every time I felt sick and wanted to slow down, especially when I got a nasty stitch in my side on the 4th set. Coach OC's voice was shouting the words at me in my mind - and it absolutely made a difference... best times so far on my 5x 1000m.

DAY 84 - MEALS

MEAL 1 - Lamb curry cooked in coconut milk, spinach and lentils with onion and spices, splodge of raita (awesome goo)
(Unusual urge for curry for breakfast instead of the scrambled eggs, a bit Lister of me I know)
 

MEAL 2 - Roast chicken (75g) with coconut oil and curry powder, tommy bobblehat,
courgette with red pepper, garlic and tomato, kale

MEAL 3 - Chicken and tomato heck sausages (75g, gf) with cherry tomato, tenderstem and almond butter
PRE WORKOUT MEAL - Chicken and tomato heck sausages (75g, gf) with cherry tomatoes,
sweet potato with hot paprika, courgettes with red pepper, garlic and tomato

POST WORKOUT MEAL - Roast chicken (75g) with curry powder, tommy bobblehat, sweet potato and hot paprika,
tenderstem broccoli, kale



DAY 84 - WEIGH IN UPDATED

I say with relief that finally the bowels are starting to do their job after carrying around all my meals for the last 9 days. There were a few bathroom adventures yesterday after getting back from training and during the night last night, so I thought I'd double check my weight in the morning today to compare to yesterday. I'm another half a kg down, so now checking in at 71.2 kg, 0.5kg in less than 24 hours? Now we're talking :D A few more toilet trips like that and I'll be hitting my new goal of 70kg at this rate (lol).

DAY 83 - TRAINING NOTES

WEEK 12 - WEIGH IN & BOBBY MAXIMUS

Still carrying around 9 days worth of meals in my gut (although first movements are beginning and very unhappy gut bubbles) I wasn't confident that my weight numbers would be accurate. But despite this I had still managed a loss of 0.4kg, now checking in at 71.7kg. Coach showed me the week 1 photos vs the photos taken today, and for once I actually saw the difference and a 'blimey' slipped out my mouth. I even didn't hide from the mirror for a change like I think I always have done up until now.

One more week to push it as hard as I possibly can before those final results, measurements and photos next Monday. And speaking of hard as I possibly can, I've been doing some reading from the very awesome Gym Jones trainer Rob MacDonald aka Bobby Maximus. I wanted to help sharpen my drive and focus for the hard push of agony this week. These words from "Training through pain, salvation through suffering' really hit a chord and reassured that me my feeling like absolute hell every time I train, and having those "four thoughts" pretty much every time - are actually a good and reassuring thing. This is opposed to my head that's been telling me for weeks that I'm clearly absolute rubbish and not fit or strong enough, especially when I'm less than half way through my session and already want to be sick / stop / die on floor.
Thankyou Bobby :-)

DAY 83 - MEALS

MEAL 1 - Eggs x2 with smoked basa, coconut oil and tommy bobblehat

MEAL 2 - Thai green turkey (75g) with lemongrass, kaffir lime, green peppers and coconut milk, kale

MEAL 3 - Roast chicken (75g) with curry powder and coconut oil, tommy bobblehat, tenderstem broccoli and kale

 

(Missed pre-workout meal)

 

POST WORKOUT MEAL - Chicken and tomato heck sausages (75g, gf) tommy bobblehats, sweet potato and hot paprika, courgettes with red pepper garlic and tomato,, kale

DAY 82 - MEALS & KITTY

MEAL 1 - Eggs x3 with smoked basa, coconut oil and tommy bobblehat

Kitty with best table manners is politely waiting for a nibble of the fish once I finish :-)

Commander kale once again leading the vegetable army

MEAL 2 - Beef and chilli burger (145g) tommy bobblehat, courgettes with red pepper, garlic, tomato, tenderstem broccoli

MEAL 3 - Chicken and tomato heck sausages (gf) tommy bobblehats, kale, almond butter

MEAL 4 - Duck confit with garlic and orange, cabbage with red onion

 And finally a bit of collapsing on bed with silly kitty before bedtime :-)



DAY 81 - MEALS & EXTRA TRAINING

Saturday morning - so as usual the day started with going to Olympic Lifting class, but today I stayed on afterwards as it was fairly quiet and did my cardio session on the rower (30 on 30 off, 20 sets) which was bloody hard work after an hour of lifting but glad I did it, and all of it (and the lifting class) in my 'no hiding' gym clothes no less. I hope the time comes sooner or later where I stop trembling all the way through training...  I'm also really hoping it's another little something that will make the difference come weigh in and results time at the end of week 12. I was chatting to Paul and James (also bodycompers) who were in for some morning extra credit training like me, it was nice to share that connection of really wanting to go that extra mile and push as hard as possible, and still unable to believe we only have 1 week left!

Bobblehat baking - Chicken stuffed with 2 lemons, lemon zest and olive oil rub, lemon thyme blankie

MEAL 1 - Eggs x3 with smoked basa, coconut oil, tommy bobblehat

MEAL 2 - Beef and chilli burger (145g) tommy bobblehat, courgette with red pepper, garlic and tomato, kale and garlic

MEAL 3 PART 1 - Heck chicken and tomato sausages (70g, gf) tommy bobblehat, avocado, kale
(Many thanks to Paul for the advice on splitting meals in half to make only 4 meals last longer on the very long days!)

MEAL 3 PART 2 - Heck chicken and tomato sausages (70g, gf) tommy bobblehats,
courgettes with red pepper, tomato and garlic, kale

MEAL 4 - Roast chicken (145g) with coconut oil and curry powder, tommy bobblehat, kale and tenderstem

DAY 80 - WEEK 6 VS WEEK 11

Challenging myself even more, I decided another photo was needed to compare alongside the photo I took back in week 6. Even though these aren't the official photos taken by Coach OC, I find that they are some additional reassuring steps to remind me of the differences, and there's definitely a difference in the stomach between these two photos and more definition. However I still look at them and feel I haven't achieved enough... but I suspect that's my perfectionism playing a part.

DAY 80 - PERSONAL BEST OF A LIFETIME

I've finally started to break down one of the biggest psychological barriers I've had throughout my entire life - not hiding under layers of clothing and especially for training.
Since I started seeing Coach OC back in early 2008 I have always had to train in 4-5 layers of clothing several sizes too big and often mens clothes for extra hiding security, and absolutely never with my arms on display either. I have always used clothing as a safety mechanism, it took almost 2 years of therapy treatment before I was able to make the step towards stopping hiding in my coat all the times (I would never take my coat off at all unless I was at home).

Doing the body composition course has made me very conscious that if I don't stop hiding by the end of it, I'm not actually going to be able to see any visible difference if there are any photos of me training because I'll still be buried in layers. So absolutely determined to start challenging myself on this - I started by asking the P6 community for advice, not having a clue where to start for buying clothing such as this, strappy tops and so forth. The response was so overwhelming and supportive that I was able to go shopping (another big one for me) and get a few bits to wear and then I decided to throw myself in the deep end today and see if I could wear my new training clothes to training.
I did practice by walking to the pharmacy in them first to pick up a prescription, just to see if the world ended by being seen in public in so little clothing. Of course when I went to the gym later I had all the huge baggy clothes in my bag to change in to incase I couldn't cope, but much to my amazement and despite shaking to the point of sickness the entire way through - I did it. There was so much support from everyone that I found it absolutely invaluable, really kept me going and stayed focused when I wanted to constantly run to the bathroom and change. The support from everyone also made me feel quite emotional and reminded me of the therapeutic community that I often miss in times of real difficulty, which this week has been especially, but it also made me realise I'm further along in my life journey now and am part of another very supportive and wonderful community of people at P6 instead :-) 

Back from training somewhat tired and smelly and out of focus - but also evidence of no hiding

 

All important colour co-ordinated training socks too, kitty is curious

And below is my Facebook post on the P6 forum when I asked for clothing advice, I also felt that externalising this step would help me really focus on actually taking this plan all the way to completion... rather than keep it in mind as something I want to do and then just avoid or leave it until it's too late (got to acknowledge those avoidant personality disorder traits of mine, happens all too often).

 

 

And the Facebook post on the P6 forum I posted after I got back from training, I really wanted to thank everyone for helping me achieve such an overwhelming challenge and new personal best of a lifetime and make sure people knew just how important their reassurances were to me :-)

DAY 80 - TRAINING NOTES & EPIC PB

Hugest personal best I've ever achieved today :-) the first step in breaking down one of my biggest and most challenging psychological barriers I've ever had.

DAY 80 - MEALS EPIC FAIL

Still no sign of any bowel movements for almost a week, and struggled to eat about 50% of my meals today unfortunately.

MEAL 1 - Eggs x2 with smoked basa, coconut oil and tommy bobblehat

MEAL 2 - Beef and chilli burger (145g cut in half) tommy bobblehat, courgettes with red pepper, garlic and tomato,
kale and dried garlic

(No meal 3 or pre-workout meal)

POST WORKOUT MEAL - Beef and chilli burger (145g cut in half) tommy bobblehat, sweet potato with paprika, kale

DAY 79 - TRAINING NOTES

Yes I added a few back extensions after the crunches, worrying and wanting to do more.

DAY 79 - MEALS

Missed post workout meal today, but all things considered still a success considering how unwell my head still is (and still no sign of any bowel movements for 5 days now - gut pains becoming an issue).

MEAL 1 - Eggs x2 with smoked basa, coconut oil, tommy bobblehat

MEAL 2 - Beef and chilli burger (75g), courgettes with red pepper, tomato and garlic, kale

MEAL 3 - Thai green turkey with lemongrass, kaffir lime, green peppers and coconut milk, avocado, olive oil, kale

PRE WORKOUT MEAL - Beef and chilli burger (145g cut in half) tommy bobblehat, sweet potato with paprika,
kale and dried garlic

DAY 78 - TRAINING NOTES - ME 1 vs HEAD 0

A huge achievement considering my mental state, even getting in the gym was a miracle

DAY 78 - MEALS

MEAL 1 - Eggs x2 with smoked basa, coconut oil, tommy bobblehat



MEAL 2 - Beef and chilli burger (75g) courgettes with red pepper, garlic, tomato, tenderstem
MEAL 3 - Turkey and paprika sausage (75g) cherry tomatoes, courgettes as above, kale
NOT PRE WORKOUT MEAL - Turkey and paprika sausage (75g) cherry tomatoes kale and tenderstem

NOT POST WORKOUT MEAL - Greek roast lamb (75g) with tomato, garlic, red onion and oregano, tommy bobblehat, courgettes with red pepper, garlic and tomato, kale