DAY 63 - WEEK 9 WEIGH IN

I had a bit of a shock when my weight had gained by 0.5 kg since last week. As much as I tried not to let it happen in my head, I crashed in to a negative spiral believing that I must have done something wrong or possibly the single glass of red wine and two slices of bread that I'd had the previous week on Wednesday because it was such a bad day. Coach OC did his best to reassure me that I had done nothing wrong, and most likely because the weather is so warm and humid that my body is retaining additional water. It can be so frustrating when despite all the logic, I still believe it's somehow my fault, my failure and I'm not trying hard enough or training hard enough. I think knowing there are only 3 weeks left, any weight gain feels like a catastrophic failure... so my meals suffered somewhat during the day as a result unfortunately.